Hello, friends! How have you been?
A lot has happened since August 2014. So much, in fact.
I’m not sure why today feels right but, for a number of reasons, I needed to come back. Back to this space that saw me through ups and downs. It was safe, my online home. A place to document and catalog every little detail of this crazy renovation. I learned more about myself in that process than any other time. The self-reflection. Putting the story out there, on paper for all to see. It helped me process, analyze, examine, finish. It held me accountable.
For the past while, I have been feeling like I’m treading water. Staying afloat but not really going anywhere. Laundry gets done but not put away. The dishwasher gets run but not emptied. I make piles and tuck things behind doors or in drawers.
Tonight, I went to fix the LED under cabinet lights that have been out for almost 9 months. I bought replacement connectors off of Amazon and they were sitting on the island until Easter. Then Easter came and they got tucked away so the place could look a little presentable. And now I can’t find them. They’re somewhere safe. So safe I cannot find them. Tearing through every cabinet, drawer, closet, bag, nook, and cushion I can think of. More mess. Still no connectors.
So frustrated I could scream. I almost lost it. On the edge of my very own temper tantrum.
A deep breath. In through my nose. Lips closed. Out through my nose. Ujjayi breath to calm my blood pressure. Recenter.
Something needs to change. I need accountability and a reason to dig out. Clearly doing it for myself and my family hasn’t been working.
So, “Hello!” I’ve missed you. I wonder if you missed me. I hope you’re well. I’m well. It’s been a long time. Perhaps we could catch up?